Is life ever just too overwhelming for you to handle? Well for me, this has been a consistent theme in my life dating back to my freshmen year in college.

It would usually go something like this. I would feel off - like something was wrong but I couldn't explain, to be honest I probably was just a stressed out broke college student, not knowing what to do or really who to turn to. I would carve out a specific amount of time, usually a month, and decide what was it I needed to accomplish during this timeframe. Most of the time it was talking myself into smoking less weed and doing more homework.

Other times it was focusing in on specific task - getting the job I wanted, trying to be in shape (I had a gym phase) or writing.

Spending six months inside and social distanced during a pandemic, for the most part, in theory should be a form of hibernation. Yet it didn't actually feel like one. I could still connect with my friends like before and even while not being able to go outside, it felt more like an adult virtual camp than a strenuous lockdown.

As we inch closer to the seventh month of this pandemic the effects of it all are finally kicking in and the boy needs a break.

A break from what exactly? I don't really know. But I do know this feeling because I've felt it before. The want for more, the need to have answers for the uncertain, and just an overall tiredness to life.

So what does my hibernation look like?

No social media (Twitter, instagram and facebook), a cutback on smoking and staying inside a little more.

Fall is one of my favorite times to hibernate, it might be the change in weather or daylight savings time giving us more darkness for sleep. Whatever the reason this fall is setting up to be an ideal one for hibernation me.